There has been a huge shift in my focal point. I declared 2018 my year of positivity and pushing forward. I didn’t know that it would put me in dry and isolated state, and by dry and isolated I mean distance from friends and minimal income. Was I prepared for this shift? Definitely not!
However, I am happy with my determination to stay positive. Little did I know that my declaration to “keep pushing forward” meant pushing forward even when business was slow….
Or to push forward when my best friend and I had the biggest fight we’ve ever had…
Or to push forward my while my mental and spiritual wellbeing was being tested..
At a glance, it seemed the more positive I tried to be, the more I was being attacked. Ooohhhh but it was so much deeper than that. I was being tested. Every moment, every little mishap was a test to see if I would waver from being positive. Waver from pushing forward. Waver from alacrity. Did I have my moments of doubt? Ask why this was happening? Yes, of course I did, but I didn’t let it stop me from my the bigger picture.
I would have never thought I would be in this place. After losing one of the biggest contracts I’ve had…. I’m still in a good place. After falling big time in my walk with Pops… I’m still in a good place. After almost having a mental breakdown… I’m still in a good place. This positivity trip is something else man. I really wouldn’t have it any other way.
Staying positive has allowed me to simplify the unnecessary in my life, make new connections, gain even bigger contracts after the ones I’ve lost, and put me right back into Pops’ arms like I never even walked away. Not to mention the boost in my confidence, and that I have no problem holding myself or those around me accountable for their lack of positivity.
I must say… my 2018 declaration is cashing in quick. Can’t wait to see what the rest of the year holds.
“And be not conformed to this world, but be TRANSFORMED by the RENEWING of your mind…” Roman 12:2